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Dan sebenarnya ku ingin scrap mu.
The song from Yuna, 'Dan sebenarnya' stuck inside my head. And I can't get enough of it. Thanks to Wany. =) And oh ya, before this blogskin was up, another blogskin with the yellow-ish background right, remember about the post that the MixPod terselit somewhere 'About Me', Haikal helped me through the terselit to tak-terselit lagi. Thanks nyahhh! =)

Anyway, Good Morning to everyone! Macam kemaruk gitu kan blog sini. =p

And I did it. Again. Something that I was not suppose to be proud of. Definitely not. Somehow I think, I ought to just completely erase him from my life. Like completely! Not even a call to him, nor picking up a call from him. Maybe I ought to stop this delusional idea about somehow I want him but I dun want him/need him. Period. I do not want to prolong these and somehow it will become worse and worse. I know I should stop these like that point of time. But somehow I didn't. I shall try out for like a day again today, not going to press the number 9******* anywhere, not even the home phone nor thinking of the song, 'Sayang *silence*' and going back to the You Tube and type the name of the *silence* nor thinking of the stuffs that have happened between the process of 'his-wanting-to-understand/get to know-me-but-end-up-not'. Somehow, he did somewhere but I afraid it is like 'ada udang di sebalik batu' when he brought up this one part or maybe a lot of *silence again*. Somehow BINGO. Oh I shall stop. Oh wait all he can talk is about the part of *silence* after marriage. I am super uncomfortable with that. Super. Ok scrappp that.


Anyway, yesterday had conversation with Ibu, and she asked about Ju *smile* this and that. *smile*

p/s: I want to smile and laugh together with Ju. I miss Ju.