P S. Ju is not in this picture!!

It is true. Im just confused of my own feelings right. I used to brush off even a tinge if that guy ever called/fb-ing me. Now all of a sudden not a tinge but is like a gargantuan feeling came inside me to force it inside. I know is nonsense. But WTH. I am trying to pull it off, brush it off. I tried to be very angry at him, hate him but still not helping. He didn't called me yesterday AGAIN. But he didn't tell me the reason. Even when I sms him, he didn't replied. I know I am not suppose to bother all these. But why now? Why now I bother all these nonsense? I am suppose to make all these (me and him) to be neutral. I felt everything was wrong. Everything was pointless. I guess I just have to force myself not to be so into these nonsense. Full stop. Yesterday was somehow the beginning of a bad day. Ok minus off the bola, Singapore vs Thailand and the Cinta Fitri. Is it going to be the continuity of a bad day for me today too?


*close my eyes.



I wish for a change please. Stop hurting me more and more.